"A woman who fears the Lord will not run away from God to satisfy her longings and relieve her anxieties. She will wait for the Lord. She will hope in God. She will stay close to the heart of God and trust in his promises. The prospect of departing into the way of sin will be too fearful to pursue; and the benefits of abiding in the shadow of the Almighty too glorious to forsake." - John Piper
In this quote, the word 'fear' is not meant as a threat, stressor, or danger. This word means Love, Respect, Cherish, Obedience. I have not been fearing the Lord at all in the past couple months. Actually, I have been running away from Him. I tend to take the easy way out of things when 'times get tough' and me running away from God right now, is the easy way out.
God isn't giving me what I think I need, and I am able to recognize that, this is my fault. My desire are skewed right now. I want a man. I want to be skinny. I want to have good grades without putting forth the effort. I want to be magically out of debt. I want to get paid to travel. What I think I need is either unrealistic or illogical. I am racing towards all of these selfish pleasures. My focus right now is on me.
I know that this is not okay - nor is it acceptable. I need to check myself and make a central change, an inward change.
I fear God because He is capable of anything and everything, but He died for me. Very rarely will you find someone who will die for another that they do not know personally, or even see in front of them. Very rarely will you find someone who will die for a person that won't be born for another 2,000 years. I am running away from someone that died for me.. I am a fool.
I am running away from God because His plans are not in alignment with mine, but that is because His plans are bigger than my own. Why the heck should I be so upset because He has bigger plans for me while I am single? Why should I be so upset that I am learning financial planning by being in debt? Why I am I upset about learning the importance of discipline by choosing to exercise and practice a healthy diet?
Embrace your fear, don't run from it. You will be surprised what you learn.
“Until Jesus Christ is the obsession of your heart, you’ll always be looking to mere men to meet your needs that only He can fill...”
God isn't giving me what I think I need, and I am able to recognize that, this is my fault. My desire are skewed right now. I want a man. I want to be skinny. I want to have good grades without putting forth the effort. I want to be magically out of debt. I want to get paid to travel. What I think I need is either unrealistic or illogical. I am racing towards all of these selfish pleasures. My focus right now is on me.
I know that this is not okay - nor is it acceptable. I need to check myself and make a central change, an inward change.
I fear God because He is capable of anything and everything, but He died for me. Very rarely will you find someone who will die for another that they do not know personally, or even see in front of them. Very rarely will you find someone who will die for a person that won't be born for another 2,000 years. I am running away from someone that died for me.. I am a fool.
I am running away from God because His plans are not in alignment with mine, but that is because His plans are bigger than my own. Why the heck should I be so upset because He has bigger plans for me while I am single? Why should I be so upset that I am learning financial planning by being in debt? Why I am I upset about learning the importance of discipline by choosing to exercise and practice a healthy diet?
Embrace your fear, don't run from it. You will be surprised what you learn.
“Until Jesus Christ is the obsession of your heart, you’ll always be looking to mere men to meet your needs that only He can fill...”
